I won't lie to keep you near me

and in this short life,
there's no time to waste on giving up
my love wasn't enough

I went sledding today with Kelsey and Ayesha. We built a snowmound. We played pool by the fireside and played foozeball and it was nice. I miss having spontaneous fun. Actually DOING things.

It's like a snowy winter wonderland. A perfect snowy winter wonderland.

I just wish I had someone to share it with. But all in good time, right? I'm just so sick of waiting for something I've been ready to have for far too long already. It's a problem, when you have so much love to give and no one to receive it. But I'm not sad. Just exhausted. And I think that's the first step. When you stop looking, it sort of just...happens, right? At least, that's what I'm being TOLD. Damn people and their successful, loving relationships.