For all the ones who left, there's a few that stayed

I ended things. I couldn't handle the instability, the yo yo effect or the insanity. I care about her more than I have cared about anything in a very long time. And it was unique and it was strange and it was beautiful, to feel things so vividly again. To be able to have within me that tremendous passion once more....it was my own clarification that everything I valued is not dead inside, it's just waiting for the right woman to unlock the key.

I want whatever will be the best for her, the very very best, but I don't think I can stick around to watch it. I have broken my one rule, the one golden rule, bu
t I needed to do this for my own sanity. For my own personal happiness. Because for once, I need to care about myself. Because no one seems to be doing it for me.

And I have learned a tremendous amount from the experience. I have learned how to say no. I have learned how to walk away. I have learned how to stop being manipulated.

I miss you. Please don't think that this was easy.